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I know I want to write something...i just don't know what to write. I have a few things going through my mind. I feel vulnerable as all hell. I think Im just going to do one of these..
-as of this minute, im sad
-I want your attention
-I want things to remain the same
-Trying to be stong
-Wishing you the best
-I want to KNOW what's best
-I want that touch
-I feel like a great friend
-I'm scared someone thinks that I don't care anymore...or doesnt love them anymore (because I sooo do)
-I feel like a bad "best friend"
-The thought of someone easily tempts me contact them
-But I can't
-I feel ignored
-I feel like I'm a nuisance
-I want you to be ready for me
-I want to be wanted
-I'm curious
-I want to know if I make people mad, because I want to stop
-I feel clueless
-I'm uneasy
-I feel like an idiot
-Am I disappointing anyone? I hope not
-When I'm thought of, does a smile come?
-I want happiness for you
-I want happiness for me
-I want happiness for ...
-I want a soft hand to graze my face, and a kiss on my forehead
-A hand going through my hair
-I want someone that I admire to admire me

Well well well...it's been a while and I have been wanting to add another entry. My day went very well today...it was great actually. I saw my beautiful girlfriend, she's the best.
This morning I had a couple of classes, college writing (enc101, for all you other college heads) and college algebra..which sucks by the way. Probably because math is like my kryptonite. I'm so happy that I don't have an exam this week, or next week for that matter. Now I can just focus on a paper that I have due this friday...piece of crumb cake (it's a wrap!).
After my classes ended, I went to target and copped a cd, public enemy's greatest hits. That cd will definitely be stay in my car for a while. FLAAVOR FLAAV!! Or maybe i won't leave it in my car because i left a cd in my car, and i think someone stole it for some reason...but I dont think so (i dont know, I do know that im not making much sense though). I also bought two of those cd holders that go the visors of you car, which are very convenient when you have loose cds by the way.
Then I relaxed at home for a while until I had to go to work. Work...Sucked...as always, but I don't have to work until sunday so it's all good
AND AFTER WORK...I SAW MY WOMAN!! I met up with her at her job. She's soooo beautiful and radiant! I went to her house where we discussed her soon to be b-day party and just enjoyed each others company. I missed her sooo much. There was so much tension and feeling building inside of us...which seems to happen even when we are away from each other for like a few hours.
On an even better note...compared to last time i wrote. I'm feeling a lot better about the whole "my girlfriend going to college thing". I told her how much I felt about her, eventhough it's soo hard to explain to her with words because they are such strong feelings. But she understood me and we see eye-to-eye. We both want the same and have the same intentions for our relationship. She made me feel very secure, as I hope I did the same for her. I KNOW everything will work out, no matter what happens. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT TIME TO SEE HER!!
I don't know who reads this...and don't really care if anyone does...just freeing up some space in my mind. I know that no one knows I have an LJ (which is pretty funny)..but I kind of want to keep it that way. The only person that knows I have one is the only person that matters.

Well everyone...i finally have a live journal, and "lj" if you will. It sucks that I have abosolutely no friends on this thing right now, so no one can even read my shit..but whatever. Anyhoos...I still think 'myspace' is better, but i like this because it's so much more simple and easier to write what you're thinking...or something like that...i don't know what im saying. But yea...I did it!! HOLLA!!!